P.S.

The garden's a bust....more watering neccesary maybe? 

I got sprouts, so according to my intial post here, I'm not allowed to be mad.

ugh....

please excuse the pride

So hang in with me for a few paragraphs while I roll in my own glory....hahaha

As you can tell from my prior post I was anxiously anticipating the end of my breastfeeding experience.  (which by the way I realized boiled down to my irrational fear of not having a constant source of available nourishment) Anyway....

There are blogs and posts and forums and websites and experts dedicated to helping moms wean their children.  Tonight, I put my sweet baby in bed after her bath NO nursing and she fell asleep as soundly and quietly as ever. 

Here is where the pride comes in...haha...I think I did myself a huge favor by following the eat, play, sleep routine and only nursing her before sleeping when it was time for bed. I usually rocked her with her pacifier to lay her down (and I also realize how lucky I am she took a pacifier).

Who knows if it will work for the rest of my sweet peas, but in the meantime, I am SO excited it went so well, especially because I was SO prepared for it to go so badly. 

the end. sorry. i know this was awkward.  :)

Putting Melons to Good Use

So....this post is NOT about melons. Stop right here if you don't want to hear about mommy-hood in too much detail or are not interested in my breastfeeding habits :)

Today is the day I eliminated our mid-day nursing session and it totally threw me off.  I was so worried about how she would feel, if she would notice, if I needed to make up the bonding time in some other form, if I was getting her enough fluids and nutrition, but I realized I should think of myself just as much. 

i love breastfeeding.

It is one moment in my day where the two of us can sit quietly.  She snuggles up to me, I watch some of my recorded shows, and I can breathe.  I'm not cooking, cleaning, chasing, playing, teaching....I'm just taking care of my baby in the easiest most natural way. 

I'm not in a hurry to wean her and I'll probably keep my morning and night nursing for another month or so....ugh....but the thought of it literally makes me nervous and sad inside.

I'm not sure if it's the reality of her growing up, if it's my selfish relish of quiet, if it's the niavete of feeling like I'm giving her nourishment better than her beets, avocado, and apricots (my milk is basically water at this point)....I can't put a finger on the reason for my feelings and maybe that in itself is what is so unsettling. 

heck.  maybe it's all of that.

This is the first time in my time as a parent that I'm feeling anxiety about a choice.  And I hate it.  But at the same time I don't want to breastfeed for another 6 months...it has to happen somehow I suppose.

Boo hoo.

Girly Food

So, once again, Tyler had another arrangment for dinner(his work peeps), so you know what that means???

GIRLY FOOD

I whipped myself up a batch of the following:

- Cheese tortelinni

- Shrimp

- Red peppers

- Onions

- Tomatoes

- Spinach

- Olive oil and Parmesan Cheese sauce

- Sprinkle of chili flake, garlic, salt, and pepper

and it was flipping amazing. Period. The. End.

She loves digging

11.5 months old

Watchin my food breathe (it's not as horrible as it sounds...trust me)

I love to hang from the oven handle like a little kid when cookies are on the verge of done...

One of my favorite things in the world is to take the time to watch cookies 'breathe' in the oven.  Take a second and watch your cookies subtly inhale and exhale as they cook...it'll make you feel good.

Faith in my little seeds

I FINALLY DID IT!!! 

I've talked about planting a garden forever and I've been too lazy/conviced I couldn't do it all in one day to actually do it. 

 So, Friday night after the munchkin went to sleep I went out and started digging a trench to bury my boards.  Seeing my slow efforts, my hunky husband rolled up with the tractor and dug me some ditches in no time and nailed my boards together. 

Saturday morning, Mel and I rolled to Home Depot in our little white car and LOADED the trunk with fertilizer and soil...it was a stinky ride home.  Tyler picked up some chicken wire on his way home from work since I didn't have room in my car overrun with poo :)

When she went to bed that night and I unrolled chicken wire, went to town with the staple gun and even got to use my sewing skills with metal 'thread'.  (see below)

After my hardscape was complete I lugged 6 bags of 40 pound poo around my giant yard and mixed my perfect soil concoction.  Sunday morning (this morning) before the sun got too bright I went out to do my 'sowing' and planted watermelon, squash, bell peppers, and tomatoes. 

Some people think I'm crazy to do it all from seeds but to me it's about the processes.  If I get any kind of green to pop out of the grown in the next two weeks....I'm a freaking winner.  If I get any actual food from them...slap a gold medal on this chest! 

Best Sandwich Ever....I'm not kidding

I know it's not so pleasing to the eye....but let me tell you how happy it made my stomach!!!

french bread grilled in a pan full of butter
american cheese
turkey deli meat
tomato slices
pickles
avocado

HEAVEN

I could eat this everyday :)

Pull it ALL out

So, I decided to get gutsy and paint my toenails will the munchkin was awake.  I know it may seem ridiculous to call this gutsy....but when you've got that little face and ten curious fingers in front of you....its gutsy, okay?

My solution was to distract her with the depths of my nail polish bag and boy did she have a good time!

She carefully removed EACH item and threw placed it aside.  I tried to pack up before she was done but we quickly realized it was vital to remove the last several bottles of nail polish before we packed up for the day...haha. 

Let's Do This!

Finally, much thanks to my cousin Kate, I've opened up my long discussed Etsy shop!  Now having done it, I'm not sure what took so long!

I'm starting with pillows since it's a minimal initial investment but I'd really love to get into duvets, curtains, and even shower curtains or tablecloths.  I added my little "widget" on the right side of my blog so if you're interested it will take you right there :)

I've got a couple more pillows up my sleeve...just need to get the perfect fabric and get sewing. 

If any readers out there have any suggestions or ideas....this girl would love to hear them!